tensionispassion

n i S H A i blog to the sound, smell and taste of gossip.

Have you ever felt like this before?

May 12, 2009 ( 5:04 AM )

Everyone was facing the same problem, at the same time; and then when you had settled yours but your friend haven’t, you really wanted to help your friend, but, don’t know why; you didn’t. and after you went away, you felt guilty and felt that if you were able to turn back time, you would help her.

Tak faham?? This was what happened just now:

We all ada 9 module tasks for parasitology yang perlu dibuat and dicollect every day. It contributes 30% of your marks, so who the hell won’t do it kan??

So, just now, the marks are out. Everyone was kaget because almost everyone’s markah tak lengkap. Kenapa tak lengkap? Katanya sebab the papers were misplaced or sebab korang yang tak buat and tak hantar (duuhh??).

Mine hilang satu. Aku tak la mengamuk sangat, sebab kawan aku lagi teruk. Dia hilang 7 set terus. After finishing my 7th and still-failed attempt of acid-fast staining (mbak tu cakap: lho, bakterinya mana? –sedih tak?-) aku pun start searching for my lost papers dalam stacks of papers yang memenuhi 6 meja dalam lab tu. Siapalah tak panas kan? Dah sejam mencari, aku pun jumpa kertas aku, dan dengan perasaan bahagia plus penat, aku kasi kertas tu kat lecturer tu.

Alhamdulillah la. And then, aku baru je nak balik, aku jumpa teman-teman aku duduk
kat luar lab. Rupa-rupanya diorang tengah tolong kawan aku yang hilang 7 set tu, buat all-over again. Talk about love. Aku tak tau la apa masalah aku, selfish sangat kot, aku pun balik camtu je. Maybe sebab aku stress dengan kertas yang hilang plus all those failed attempts.

So sekarang, aku rasa macam bersalah sangat sebab tak tolong kawan aku tu. Hati aku jadi tak tenang. Aku fikir jugak. Kalau aku tak tolong orang, siapa nak tolong aku nanti? Lagipun, kawan aku ni, rapat jugaklah dengan aku. Di mana ada gossip, di situlah ada dia. Di mana ada scandal, dia pun ada. Pokoknya everything yang berlaku di keliling dia, sure dia tau. Tabik spring, beb!

Nway, aku sebenarnya tak tau apa aku buat ni betul ke tak timing nya, tapi here goes:

SORRY FARAHIN SEBAB AKU TAK TOLONG KAU TADI.

p/s: aku tolong gak cari kertas2 kau, tapi kebetulan set yang aku cari tu, takde kau punya